One of my friend saw me the other day when I was on my way to the library. She asked me why am I going there because lecture will start soon and I answered to return this book I borrowed*showing her the book* and she looked at me as if I’m crazy(okay, I’m exaggerating). ‘But why don’t you just put the book in the bin?’ she said while pointing to the bin at the corner. ‘Naa, I don’t like it. I prefer to send it upstairs’, and off I went to the 5th floor, returned the book and meet her again downstairs. Still confused, she asked me why didn’t I just put the book in the bin, why troubling myself to go to the library when I can save my time returning the book just by simply putting the book in the bin? And I said to her ‘Well, I don’t know. I’ve always been like this. My friends said I’m weird too*I’m assuming she think I’m weird*, but I just don’t take shortcut’. Then she said ‘But you’re happy like that right?’ and I answered ‘YES’ and there’s a big grin on my face.
Well, looking back to my 20 years of life, I remembered myself as the one who always took the long path. I’m not much of a ’shortcut’ person. Well, not in every aspect of life but there’s a certain matters that best to be travelled using the long way instead of shortcut. Building trust is one of them. Let say if I was told to tell someone about something, I will tell the person what I was told and I’ll make sure that the person hear it from me and not from someone else. What I’m trying to say is that even if I have trouble finding the person, I will still not take short-cut for example by leaving a post-it note on his/her table or telling others(e.g: roommate, gf, bf, friends) about that stuff and ask them to tell that person. What if the post-it note was seen by another person, or that ‘others’ told ‘others’ about that stuff. Tension can be created and this will leads to drama. We do not know how sensitive or how secretive the issue is to that person, so never take things for granted. The person who told you trust you and thus it is only acceptable if we do not violate the trust by not taking the so-called shortcuts. And yes, I’m aware of SMS but hey, what makes you think that the person’s mobile phone are not with someone else? It can be that the person leaves his mobile phone while going for a jog and that someone else might have read the SMS that you send. Well, I know I read someone else’s SMS and I’m pretty sure I’m not alone. So, please don’t take shortcut and also, don’t read other’s SMSes*note to myself*.
The same goes when you are doing your homework. People tend to borrow-copy-paste others homework and hell ya, it saves a plenty amount of time right? It’s a really good experience and how did I knew about this? Because for the past years, I’ve been taking this shortcut. Something of which I’m not during my earlier school years. I was once a geek who will cry if I failed to complete my homework in a given time. And no, I will not copy it from someone else because for me that’s not the way of learning. So what if I hadn’t had enough time to complete them right, as long as I did not take ’shortcut’, I’m still on the right track. Ow, how I miss the good old me. Now, I’m lagging behind my friends too much that I think I wanna quit because studying is not my passion anymore. See, this is why I hate shortcut. I think if I hadn’t start using this shortcut years ago, I won’t be addicted to it and I won’t be taking studying for granted. The once eager student has now completely vanished and I’m paying for my mistake now. Ever since I took the shortcut, the definition of studying for me is not to understand the concept anymore, but to memorize the concept. Well, it’s true when you are copying other homeworks right? As long as you know why he/she answered it that way, then you’ll manage to survive the year. That is when everything starts falling apart for me.
Well, there are more stuffs but I’m guessing you guys get the idea on why I didn’t take shortcut right? Well, for me it doesn’t matter whatever path you choose, be it the long one or the ow-I-save-so-much-time-and-energy path, as long as you reach the destination without harming yourself or others then everything is perfect. And yep, I will always and still take the long path as I’m much more comfortable that way.
p/s: if we do not meet halfway, then wait for me at the end of the road okay?
February 5, 2010. AwakEN, COLLeGE liFe, liFE AS i haD it, mY StoRiEs!!, newCAstLe. .
Yep, you read it right. I’m a total shopping freak right now..and no, I don’t wanna use the term ’shopaholic’ because I’m not but sometimes when I saw something really captivating and intriguing(well, at least they are to me), I will not hesitate to buy that stuff. And trust me, sometimes I don’t give a damn about the price. Okay, that’s not what I wanna rambling about in this post.
I finally took Dyan’s advise. About what?? About buying things for my family once a month. Yippie. And I thought I’ll not be able to do that but somehow, I enjoyed doing it. By doing this, I won’t feel guilty everytime I go for a shop because at least I know I’m shopping for me and my family. Cool right? Okay, I’ve only bought stuffs for one of my brother but still I’m excited about it. Well, though it be quite worrying to know how will my family react upon receiving the gifts because when I buy stuffs for someone, I tend to buy it because I love it not because the person love it. Erk, now that I said that, I bet people won’t be asking me to buy stuffs for them anymore right?? Well, I’m just hoping that I won’t be disappointing them. But wait a second, that’s only one person. How about my 2 other brothers? And my sister?? God, what am I gonna buy for them?? T-shirts, shirts, jeans?? Well, one of those things for sure. Well,since I have 1 month for each person, that makes 3 months for all 3 of them. February-Yan, March-Ashley, April-Girl.. And *fingers crossed* I’ll be back to Malaysia on June, so I have May and June left. Wtf!! That’s not enough!! I have too many cousins and how am I going to buy stuffs for them if there’s not enough time?? Well, for the cousins I will need to do some selection then. I will only pick the youngest from each of my extended family(the youngest for every aunt or uncle that I got). So to those who are much older, I’m sorry but you are not that lucky. And since they are still young, I will buy things for them all at once. Why? Less time picking because whatever it is that I buy for them, they won’t be complaining. They are still young remember..*Evil laugh*
And you probably be wondering how about my parents right? Don’t worry, I save the best for the last. I have 5 months to observe and just before I go back to KK, I will buy the best that I can find and give it to them. And I need to buy something for Her too. But I’m not quite sure what to buy..Hmm, nevermind. I still have 5 months. So now May-cousins, June-my parents and Her. And I’m done. The hardest part now is to stick to the plan.*sigh*
p/s: azlaily, alamak sa lupa ko..ndapalah, di KK jakla kita shopping k..haha
January 27, 2010. AwesomeNesS, ShoPPing, newCAstLe. .
I need a time alone. Life is a complete mess right now and I kinda need a quality time all to myself as I’m trying to sort out and put back all these pieces of puzzles altogether.
January 24, 2010. mY StoRiEs!!. .
I don’t play tennis but I’m really2 a big fan of the ATP and WTA. Like whenever I logged in to my mail, I will click the sports section and search for ‘Tennis’ eventhough there isn’t any tournament going on during that time. And I probably can list down the top 20….okay 15….okay kidding, top 10 players for both gender. And trust me, I googled about them more than I googled about other stuffs. Tennis somehow captures my attention and it’s my passion ever since and though I have no talent in playing tennis(God, how on Earth can they run all over the court to return the ball, hit the ball with such power and still manage to look good even when they are sweating like a pig), I still love and will always enjoy watching tennis tournament.
And ow, why did the title of this post show a crying sad face when my post is a complete crap about my ‘interest’, well because I kinda irritate right now as I can’t watch the Australian Open(the first of the 4 Grand Slams) because 1st, I don’t own a television and 2nd, I don’t know how to watch it online. I tried typing almost every single things that will relate to the tournament but all I ended up with was this box displaying their scores. Damn it!!! It’s frustrating you know, to see those scores but actually you didn’t watch the real thing. There’s no tension, no adrenaline rush, no wide smiling, no swearing, well basically, no everything. But whatever it is, I will always rooting for Nadal and the Williams sisters be it during their rough time or not. Okay, apart from them, Cilic, Roddick, Wozniacki and Henin will have my support as well. (;
January 24, 2010. AwesomeNesS, newCAstLe, teNNis. .
Ow I really hate it. Now that I’m back to my old routines, I felt as if I wanna puke on someone face. Well, not exactly the right expression here but hey, I can feel whatever it is I want to feel right?
Waking up at 8 am, take shower, walk to the medical school, attend lectures and seminars, walking back to my crib, online, sleep and pheew, the same all routines 5 days a week. Ow, btw there’s a lot of eating in between. (;
Am I complaining? Nope, I’m totally aware that’s a normal life of a student but since I’m in a very unstable phase right now, I’m afraid that I’m not quite ready to deal with the handouts, assignments, exam marks but most importantly I’m far from being ready to meet my friends *well, if only they assume me as one though*. You see, I don’t like it when my friends feel hurt because of my behaviours. Nope, don’t worry, there’s no punching or kicking, just loads of bad words and swearing. And trust me, when I’m being sarcastic or bad mouthing, I’m way better than Paris Hilton being a bitch…okay, I tried to make a joke there but I can sense no one is laughing. Bad one huh.
Anyway, hope you guys have a wonderful time being back to student’s life.
January 18, 2010. COLLeGE liFe. .
I felt very empty today. As if my life wasn’t complete but duh, like I have life right?? For the past week(yes, it’s week without the ’s’), I finally feel like I’m here and I’m up to something. I mean, the medicine course. I’ve been spending most of the time last week(note the word ‘most’ not ‘all’) doing revision, together with my best pals, Bedal and Pandi. During the revision period, I constantly reminding myself that as soon as the exam is over, I will sleep, watch movie, and online till I finally decide to stop or when I finally decide to start typing those 3500 words assignment*is it 3500 or is it more??hmm, whatever*. But now that the exam is over(OSCE is not counted as exam), I feel as if I wasn’t me anymore. I have no interest in sleeping(which is weird because I’m really good at it regardless the place and time), not excited to google new movies they have on9 and I just stare at my laptop without actually doing anything. Now, where did the ‘I wanna do this after exam….’ excitement went to? And ow, I have this weird feeling where I think people actually did not realize my existence. As if I’m this tiny(okay, I know I’m big but being big doesn’t mean you’ll get noticed by people right??) little fella who isn’t worth talking or looking at. God, I sounded like I’m in desperate need for attention, but I’m not. As I said, this is just my feeling right…*sigh* But it’s true. I realized that people are actually avoiding me and I hate it. But again, as I said, I better stop complaining and just living my life the way I wanted it to be. Yippie!!#
I’m weird, am I??
January 14, 2010. AwakEN, COLLeGE liFe, mY StoRiEs!!, newCAstLe. .
Seriously, I’m tired of pretending. I’m tired of kissing people’s ass. I’m tired of those fake smiles I made whenever I stumbled upon familiar faces. And yes, I’m tired of complaining that I should do things my way but yet to achieve. But guess what?? I don’t give a damn about it anymore. If people hated me, I just don’t fucking care. Some people are just so ignorant that they thought everything must revolve around them.
January 12, 2010. liFE AS i haD it, mY StoRiEs!!. .
Everyone was born with the rockstar attitude in them. Well, maybe not all but almost every person in this world will be born with that attitude and yes, I’m pretty sure about that. Ow, I have a picture as a proof.

I'm a fucking rockstar!!!
Notice anything unusual about this photo?? Look closer…really closer…Ow, look at those fingers!!! I know right, this baby is a rockstar. Btw, this isn’t abnormal gesture. You yourself will probably be doing the same gesture when you were in your mum’s womb. Cool!!
And yes, I believe I’m a rockstar and Azlaily, I don’t think you are one..hihi
*so what I’m still a rockstar….*
(Ow, I wanna go karaokeing with my buddies….Bon Jovi’s song keeps on playing in my mind..) ‘you give love a bad name’
January 9, 2010. AwesomeNesS, COLLeGE liFe, mY StoRiEs!!, newCAstLe. .
Okay..I’ve said that I don’t want to have any resolutions this year because I’m afraid that I won’t be able to achieve it as it had happened in previous years but I really think that this year it will be different so, after a long thinking, I ended up with not 1, not 2 but 5 resolutions. Yeay!! They are :
Less spending, More saving!!!
Less about others, More about me(saudari azlaily faham apa yg cuba saya sampaikan di sini???)
Less fatty foods, More on healthy diet(hmm, the hardest to be done I guess)
Less facebooking, More facing the books to study(Saya Mahu Jadi Pandai Macam Orang Lain)
Less the talking, More to listening others(God, I talk like really-really-really loads and I gave no rooms for people to share their thoughts and stories..sorry people)
I know, it’s not that many but still I’ll be happy if I get to achieve at least one of them. To be able to achieve all will be a big damn bonus for me and I’ll make sure to try and achieve every single one of them though it seems quite impossible. Anyway, wishing all readers a big luck to go through this year(;
January 5, 2010. AwakEN, mY StoRiEs!!, newCAstLe, raNdomneSS. .
Ow,what better way to end the year with your friends other than visiting/touring Old Trafford Stadium right??? And thankfully to them, I finally get to go there.. Well, Elfi is a big fan..like really-really BIG fan of Manchester United. And he was so lucky to be able to watch the match between MU and Wigan yesterday. And ow, what were we(me and Dyan) doing during the whole match?? We went to the cinema to watch St. Trinians 2 and damn, the movie was enjoyable to watch. Dyan, I still love the geek leader okay…haha
Okay, back to the actual thing. The hotel where they’ll be staying tonight happens to be near the stadium, so we decided to go there for a tour around the stadium. It was my first time for a stadium tour while it’s the forth for both of them. WHAT????? They went to Anfield the day before. And during the tour I had so much fun. Okay, not like fun, fun. More to like fun as in excited because before this I only get to watch Old Trafford Stadium in the television and today I finally get to step in to the stadium and enter their changing room and lounge. Who knows, I might actually sat on Rooney’s favourite spot on the lounge. (;

The happy face(;
Our tour start at 11.10 so before the tour started we wandered around the museum first. Snapping pictures, discussing stuffs(the plane crash in 1958, the football legends, the boots, the matches,) of which me and Dyan have no clue at all..

Dedicated to Jigru!!!

One of the legend...

Just a few of the entire collections!!

Merchandises from the Malaysia-MU match earlier this July

Some of their personal collections

And they have this machine which can transform your one pound + one penny coins to an egg shaped coin which has Manchester logo on it or picture of the stadium..it’s your pick!!

The Machine!!

(;

The once upon a time famous boots!!

I came, I saw, I conquered Old Trafford!!

*Them*

That's their spots la Elfi....

The interviewing place!!!


Ow, I Like!!
Well, that should be enough I guess. And just after the tour ended, we were rushing to get a cab because my bus to Newcastle will leave in less than 15 minutes. How cool is that right?? And don’t worry. I make it on time. All thanks to both Dyan and Elfi who paid the taxi driver and who asked people where my bus stand is. I couldn’t make it without you two. ( (; )
And that’s the end of my 2009. How does your year ends?
December 31, 2009. AwesomeNesS, newCAstLe, vaCAtiOn. .