Grandpa,I’ll be missing you……
Well,you might probably had heard about my grandpa’s dead as you are reading this post..He died on 8 a.m(Malaysia Time), 10 Nov 2009 at Kg. Kobusak, Penampang. I was told about the news later that evening(it’s 9 am in UK) and I was crying the whole morning. Though I tried to covered it by smiling and laughing in front of my friends. I’ve talked to grandma, mum and dad about it and my grandma was crying when I talked to her. She told me not to cry and she even thanked me for being there with grandpa just before I went to UK. That being said, I still think that I’m not a good grandson. Just by accompanying my grandpa during his sick time wasn’t enough to pay for his kindness throughout my 20 years of life..We do had arguments sometimes but still he was my perfect definition of a grandpa. The one who looks after you, the one who brings you for ‘Balik Kampung‘, the one who brings you to swim at the best river ever, the one who always ask you ‘have you eaten?‘ whenever you are visiting him, the one who tell you stories about his past as a policeman and simply the one who loves you for who you are and will always be with you whenever you need him.
I LOVE HIM..I REALLY DO..
What makes me sad the most is the fact that I wasn’t being able to complete my job and my promise to look after him until his last breath. I did promise to him that. And I wasn’t being able to sit next to him or hug and kiss him just before his times come. I felt really terrible.REALLY-REALLY TERRIBLE. He had given us the most and I wasn’t even able to give him my best especially during the time when he needed me the most. I should have been there. I should have been taking care of him, though I know I can’t do much to help him but I do think that’s the least I can do. Ow, I misses the time when he used to bring us to Kuala Penyu, I misses the time when he drove us to Sg.Kibambangan and swam there, I misses the time where I’ll be accompanying him to Lido and buy foods there but what I miss the most is the fact that he will always smile and he always welcomes us to his place with open heart and his loves for us is real.
I'll keep you in my heart..PROMISE!!
Even before I took my flight to KL, he was making jokes and laughing eventhough he’s sick at that time. He was in the hospital at that time and just before I board on the flight I was told that he was released from the ward and he was given the permission to stay at home. God,I’m crying now… Remembering my last moment with him really does makes me feel sad.
‘BELAJAR BAGUS-BAGUS’..’JANGAN MAIN-MAIN’
That was his last words to me…
Grandpa,I’m sorry…I hope you’ll forgive me..I will always remember you and thank you for being such a great grandpa…May your soul rest in peace.Amen
Of winter and holiday vacation…
I’ve told you before that I’ll be spending my winter holiday at Turkey right??Well,guess what??I decided not to go…okay,like that’s a shocker..haha..Why??Because a friend to a friend of mine who originated from Turkey said it’s damn cold there during winter and we shouldn’t be going there as there isn’t much to do.Flabbergasted??You bet I didn’t…It wasn’t easy to suddenly cancelled and changed your plan you know. Worse, because of me my friend who really wanna go there had to buy the expensive ticket as I’ve been delaying my decision to go there and when I finally decided to go there, comes this very shocking news and the promotional ticket has ended(sorry Muzh-muzh). Stupid me…At first I wasn’t buying the girl’s story, so I googled it and oops,the girl is telling the real thing. Every comment was saying that winter is not the best season to go to Turkey as the weather is very unpredictable..but everything is a lot cheaper during that time.But who the hell cares right. I want to enjoy the scenery and seeing everything covered by snow isn’t a pleasant view to our eyes right???
So what’s the new plan??Seriously nothing..It’s up to me and Fandi to decide as we haven’t talk much about it really. I believe that things will never go according to plan. So, just wait and see where the wind will blow us to..
I Wanna Be Skinny Again…
I’m not lying…you know how hard it is to constantly received comments from people saying ‘ow,you’re fat’, ‘what happened to you??’, ‘eee,gumuk…’ and all those stuffs..I have no problem receiving and accepting those remarks but some times, I do feel offended. Why? Because it’s not easy to suddenly be hearing people talking about your body. I don’t know about you guys but for me it is such a serious issue. Well, my bad actually..I’ve been spending too much time eating and sleeping after the SPM exam, that’s why I gained so many weights in a short period. I should have been spending more time exercising or jogging in order to get rid of those bulgy areas right, but I just don’t have the desire to do so. Damn, I am lazy. In those 8 months gap(after SPM and before entering KTT) I went from 53 kg to 60 kg. Nice job Allan. My weight now??? You don’t want to know.
My previous size...
TO
Well,maybe I’m not that fat..but still it shocked me so freaking much to see the differences in size between those pictures..and notice how my ‘flat tyre’ changed to the ‘big and round area surrounding my stomach’.. God,help me to be skinny again..I’m begging you.
p/s:credit to azlaily for the picture.It makes me realize how much work to be done right now.
quOtaTionS!!
When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.
‘Helen Keller’
-notts game-
I went to Nottingham last Saturday..I was attending the so called ‘biggest Malaysian games in the UK’ and damn, it is BIG..Dato Ahmad Shabery Cheek was there on behalf of The Prime Minister to graced the event.To those who didn’t know, he is our Minister of Youth and Sports. Nottingham University were crowded with thousands of Malaysian(erk,I’m not really sure but based on my observation the event does seem to be attended by thousands of people). For a moment, I felt as if I’m back at Malaysia. There were quite a number of games held at the event but I can’t stop laughing when they showed us the montage of the event. Why?? Because ‘Batu Seremban’ and ‘Congkak’ were in the games list. No wonder they call it the ‘Malaysian Games’. I thought it was only because it was participated by the Malaysians all across the UK but the ‘games’ itself pretty much explains the event.
We departed from Newcastle around 3.30 a.m and we arrived at Nottingham at 7 a.m. When we arrived there, almost all of my friends stumbled upon their long lost friends or cousins but that’s not the same scenario with me *sigh*. I have no one there. Well,at least my friends came there with a reason. To meet with their friends. Me??I just wanted to experience being surrounded by a sea of Malaysian in the UK. Lame right??Well, I actually went there in hope of meeting Giwok and surprise-surprise, we did met but our conversation isn’t that long. He was occupied with his football match(well,that’s the only reason he went there..haha). But our time together is precious and we met during the time I needed him the most. Just before I went back to Newcastle(I wanted to stay there but since we have exam on Monday and I haven’t study,I decided to go back(not that I’ll pass the exam right..huhu)). Well,after seeing my Uni friends chit chating with their friends and camwhoring, I can’t help myself but to envy them as there’s no one I know there. Well, I’m happy for my friends because at least they did not completely eradicate me upon seeing their friends. So, to Afandi, Afdhal and Muzhaffar..you guys just saved my day.
Meeting Giwok even for just 20 minutes had pretty much makes me happy. And I really wanted to celebrate my first Christmas in the UK with him, but sadly enough he already had a plan.What’s the plan?I’ve promised not to tell anyone but I’m totally understand his situation now so I will not force him. At least I know Dyan will still be coming to London and we gonna party really hard. Dyan, you’re in right??And ow,the best part of the event is the ‘Malaysian Food Festival’..The price of the foods is acceptable and the variation of foods really makes you go ‘uhh…’, ‘ahhhh’, ‘yummy’..Well,it’s not easy to find Malaysian foods here right?
p/s: Azhar, I really hope you are here now..
:’(
I looked gloom right??
